More Prayers...

Today my heart is completely broken. I found out my sweet dear cousin ( 21 yrs.) is dieng of testiculiar cancer. It mestatsis and they give him less than a few months to live. My uncle will have to bury his second child, my cousin. There are just no words to express the deepest sorrow and grief I am feeling. We will be making a trip to the hospital to see him in Orlando next weekend. Just keep my family in your prayers. We need prayers this week. So many prayers.

Strength & Prayers...

I need strength and prayers. My nervousness for the Dr.'s was correct. I am ill. Very ill w/ a serious disorder. I still have to go to see some specialists and find out what I am up against. I am scared and I will always try to be positive. So...I am calling all my markers in. Asking all my girls to pray for me and my family.

Nervous...

So...I am nervous...really nervous. I got a call from the Dr. and he asked if I could please come into the clinic. "He wants to discuss some test results w/ me" Hummm....That usually doesnt mean good news. No news is good news....having the Dr. ( not the nurse) track me down to come in "as soon as possible" is not good news. I had gone to the Dr. and had some bloodwork. I returned and he did some more blood tests and now I got the "call ". I am nervous....I am alone, w/ 3 kids who depend on me and husband who is deployed. I dont want to feel nervous...but I am. Saying some prayers today...

The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Its been....

...A MONDAY !! Thats for sure. Woke up Jon for school as usual. We got dressed and he was struggling all morning. Right before the bus comes he runs to the bathroom to start puking !! So here I am...kid in the toilet, dogs going crazy and a bus honking at my door at 6:45 am. By the time I got Jon taken care of...the bus had left. Not that I would have put him on the bus like that but the bus is an ESE bus. It comes to get all the ESE directly at their door. I felt terrible. So I stripped Jon down, set him in the tub and called the bus aide. She was annoyed and I am not sure how much of my "story" she believed but it was all true. Its was a crazy morning. I cant stand when my Mondays start off rough. Thats usually how they stay and this was no exception. We went to the Dr. and he diagnosed Jon with a sinus infection and he heard some gurgling in his chest so his congestion has travelled there. Jon has been congested all week. No fever, just steady congestion and I was hoping it was his allergies....NOT. Needless to say we are back on antibiotics and a z-pack at that. The dr. wants to see him again in a few days to listen to him and make sure he is on the mend. Once we got home...the phone rang.  It was a dear friend of mine. She called to let me know that another couple friend of ours lost their almost 1 year old to SIDS. I was at a loss for words. Losing a child has to be one of the most life changing tragedy any parent can go thru. It was all I could do to keep from crying for them. When I hung up....I tried to lay Jon down but no go. He just wanted to be up playing with his coins and studying his sight words. I decided to open my email and there was an email from another dear friend. Her and her husband are getting a divorce. Another jaw dropping moment. I didnt see that coming. But the military is a rough life. I guess they attempted counselling and he isnt "seeing" a problem and she is "over" it. Just so sad. So...I never got my laundry completed. I never got Jim's box out. I didnt do my usual monday things. It was a BLAH SAD day for me. But tomorrow is a new day...it has to be.

Signed Up...

James varsity soccer season ends in March. He has already signed up for Rec season w/ Amelia Island Youth Soccer League. Today I signed Jonathon up for tee-ball season. Both boys are playing ball :)
They are all about it !! James was stoked that half of his varsity school team is signed up to play at AIY. That didnt happen last year. So he came home whooping it up. When I took Jon to sign up today he was so excited he couldnt contain himself. When we tried his uniform on for sizing purposes...he thought he was playing today. Broke my heart to tell him no, and he cried all the way home. I am so happy that the boys enjoy their sports. Something is to be said about staying active and focused. Sports keep them out of trouble and busy. Especially the teens. It keeps me running and sometimes conflicted and CRAZY...but thats a mom for you :) Always running, cheering her kiddo's on. GO YULEE HORNETS....GO AMELIA ISLAND...GO YULEE LITTLE LEAGUE :)

Nice Quote...

I got this sent to me and I just loved it...

'May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where
you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are
born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have
received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be
content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into
your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.'

A boy and his dog...

Jon and our Dashund were raised together. Jon was a baby when we got Ginger. She was his shadow. She never left his side. When he was anxiety stricken and frustrated w/ no speech. It was as if they had unspoken telepathic understandings of what he needed. When he was newly diagnosed she NEVER left his side. Jim and I would comment about how close they were. As the years have gone by and we rescued our Shitzu Poodle mix from the flea market, we expected the same bond. But like most Austic children...change is difficult. He didnt like Jack Jack. That sweet dog attached himself to Jon and really he didnt want any part of him. As Ginger has gotten older...she isnt as playful and Jon started letting Jack Jack into his heart. The last few weeks since Jim left....Jon started letting Jack Jack in. He started taking care of him. He started feeding him and Ginger. Letting him out, tossing the ball to him every once in awhile. Its warmed my heart. Jon experiences anxiety at time when things at home are too hectic, or he is ill, or when Jim is gone and he is missing him. I have been finding Jack Jack w/ Jon at bedtime. I would shoo him off the bed and when I would go back and there he would be...standing guard of his boy. This has been going on for weeks. I dont bother anymore. It took Jon 2 years to let that pup into his "life" I figured he earned his right to snooze w/ him :)