I'm Back

So...Its been over a month that I havent been on. I have to say so much has been happening...LIFE HAS TAKEN OVER. I'm afraid that happens sometimes. As for me and my medical issues. I have been to see a specialist, who decided that he would run his own tests and come up with  his own diagnosis for whats happening to me. I am not sure how that makes me feel. should I be MORE NERVOUS or NOT. So I did exactly what a good patient does. I followed his directions. I made my follow up appt for 3/18 and re-did another 12 more vials of bloodwork. I'm trying to stay positive and doing lots of prayers.

My cousin is not doing so well. He is having lots of issues and my uncle is struggling with the overwhelming task of all of this. The heartache I feel over this is so intense. I just continue to believe that God has a plan. God will help us thru these struggles. All of them.

More Prayers...

Today my heart is completely broken. I found out my sweet dear cousin ( 21 yrs.) is dieng of testiculiar cancer. It mestatsis and they give him less than a few months to live. My uncle will have to bury his second child, my cousin. There are just no words to express the deepest sorrow and grief I am feeling. We will be making a trip to the hospital to see him in Orlando next weekend. Just keep my family in your prayers. We need prayers this week. So many prayers.

Strength & Prayers...

I need strength and prayers. My nervousness for the Dr.'s was correct. I am ill. Very ill w/ a serious disorder. I still have to go to see some specialists and find out what I am up against. I am scared and I will always try to be positive. So...I am calling all my markers in. Asking all my girls to pray for me and my family.

Nervous...

So...I am nervous...really nervous. I got a call from the Dr. and he asked if I could please come into the clinic. "He wants to discuss some test results w/ me" Hummm....That usually doesnt mean good news. No news is good news....having the Dr. ( not the nurse) track me down to come in "as soon as possible" is not good news. I had gone to the Dr. and had some bloodwork. I returned and he did some more blood tests and now I got the "call ". I am nervous....I am alone, w/ 3 kids who depend on me and husband who is deployed. I dont want to feel nervous...but I am. Saying some prayers today...

The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity

to accept the things I cannot change;

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Its been....

...A MONDAY !! Thats for sure. Woke up Jon for school as usual. We got dressed and he was struggling all morning. Right before the bus comes he runs to the bathroom to start puking !! So here I am...kid in the toilet, dogs going crazy and a bus honking at my door at 6:45 am. By the time I got Jon taken care of...the bus had left. Not that I would have put him on the bus like that but the bus is an ESE bus. It comes to get all the ESE directly at their door. I felt terrible. So I stripped Jon down, set him in the tub and called the bus aide. She was annoyed and I am not sure how much of my "story" she believed but it was all true. Its was a crazy morning. I cant stand when my Mondays start off rough. Thats usually how they stay and this was no exception. We went to the Dr. and he diagnosed Jon with a sinus infection and he heard some gurgling in his chest so his congestion has travelled there. Jon has been congested all week. No fever, just steady congestion and I was hoping it was his allergies....NOT. Needless to say we are back on antibiotics and a z-pack at that. The dr. wants to see him again in a few days to listen to him and make sure he is on the mend. Once we got home...the phone rang.  It was a dear friend of mine. She called to let me know that another couple friend of ours lost their almost 1 year old to SIDS. I was at a loss for words. Losing a child has to be one of the most life changing tragedy any parent can go thru. It was all I could do to keep from crying for them. When I hung up....I tried to lay Jon down but no go. He just wanted to be up playing with his coins and studying his sight words. I decided to open my email and there was an email from another dear friend. Her and her husband are getting a divorce. Another jaw dropping moment. I didnt see that coming. But the military is a rough life. I guess they attempted counselling and he isnt "seeing" a problem and she is "over" it. Just so sad. So...I never got my laundry completed. I never got Jim's box out. I didnt do my usual monday things. It was a BLAH SAD day for me. But tomorrow is a new day...it has to be.

Signed Up...

James varsity soccer season ends in March. He has already signed up for Rec season w/ Amelia Island Youth Soccer League. Today I signed Jonathon up for tee-ball season. Both boys are playing ball :)
They are all about it !! James was stoked that half of his varsity school team is signed up to play at AIY. That didnt happen last year. So he came home whooping it up. When I took Jon to sign up today he was so excited he couldnt contain himself. When we tried his uniform on for sizing purposes...he thought he was playing today. Broke my heart to tell him no, and he cried all the way home. I am so happy that the boys enjoy their sports. Something is to be said about staying active and focused. Sports keep them out of trouble and busy. Especially the teens. It keeps me running and sometimes conflicted and CRAZY...but thats a mom for you :) Always running, cheering her kiddo's on. GO YULEE HORNETS....GO AMELIA ISLAND...GO YULEE LITTLE LEAGUE :)

Nice Quote...

I got this sent to me and I just loved it...

'May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where
you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are
born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have
received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be
content with yourself just the way you are. Let this knowledge settle into
your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.
It is there for each and every one of us.'